1. |
Set In Stone
04:36
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I'm so sick of being clay
So ready to be reshaped
Into whatever you want to see
In a mad effort to please
You'll never see a statue trembling
Wish I wasn't so unsteady
I need somewhere solid to stand
To be someone I understand
Pre Chorus:
I'm smart enough to know where I don't belong
But not enough to know where I do
I'm determined enough to plant my feet firmly
Uncertain enough to still wonder if I should move
Chorus:
I wanna be set in stone
These changing minds and shifting times will get me lost
I wanna be set in Stone
Instead of dissolving into the chaos
To escape the anarchy
I made up rules on how to be
Decided how I'm to behave
Where I belong and where I'll stay
I have no choice but to follow
Broken rules mean broken bones
So I carved away the might-have-beens
But sometimes I still feel them like a phantom limb
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I don't wanna be my own stranger (4x)
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2. |
In Character
03:38
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Tangled ribbons and a heavy weight
A dazzling show behind a vacant gaze
When a dream don't make sense, that's what it remains
It looks pretty from afar
So you better stay right where you are
I'll keep it in a music box, forever small and safe
Chorus:
Just imagine everyone
Who I wish I could become
Tableau vivant, not how we want
Because I must stay in character
I was content with distant stars
And books that end before their starts
But lately this thing has been crossing my mind more and more
Empty handed, got nothing to lose
I'm offered chances, that's my cue
To recite the reasons that I think I might rather ignore
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I get paper cuts on these shreds of hope
'Cause all I want is to break free and still I don't
I could crush this wish under my foot
Or I could tear down the curtain and tell the tale of how the earth shook
Tangled ribbons and a heavy weight
A dazzling show behind a vacant gaze
Tangled ribbons and a heavy weight
A dazzling show behind a vacant gaze
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3. |
Since We Last Spoke
04:49
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Do you remember that night when I tried to hide my tears?
I thought no one would be the wiser
But you were still awake as I sobbed into my pillowcase
And you said, "You're a loud crier"
You told me the same thing's happened to you a thousand times
I cheered up in a minute or two
And we went on talking, found things we had in common
Similarities we were quick to lose, but
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I hang on to every word you're not saying to me
And try to recognize the one who I knew you to be
The memories keep coming back but the silence can't be filled
Wish we could return to the way things were, but I know we never will
Am I just being obsessive 'cause I wanna feel something?
Did I take you for granted back when you spent your time with me?
And damn, what if you hear this? And damn, what if you don't?
And why am I still singing about you
When it's been god knows how long since we last spoke
Now I'm just a passage in your childhood diary
About a joke we used to make
But I'm happy to be a happy memory of yours
Nothing else is left anyway, but
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I think deep down, I knew even then
That we didn't quite fit
We were growing apart
From the day we met
So I'll let go of what I know I should
But I will keep
The memories of you
That are worth so much more than I expected they would be, and
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Since we last spoke, since we last spoke
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4. |
Badly Drawn Faces
03:23
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Back when I was younger, I really loved to draw
I tried to replicate the images I saw
Inside my head but I just couldn't get my visions to the page
The proportions were all wrong so as I aged
I realized that I was never good at art one bit
Looking at the princess supposed to be elegant
The gowns and crowns were gaudy and simply didn't look right
Not to mention faces with unconvincing eyes
They told me "You can be anything"
But then I realized I can't figure out how
'Cause you can be anything you want except someone else
How does everybody else already know
To control the facial muscles and the voice's tone
They don't have to draw, they just take a photograph
It comes so naturally to them, what is it I don't have?
Everything I do is forced although I am sincere
Blame it on anxiety, I'm paralyzed by fear
I try to make expressions like we're all supposed to do
But they're as unrealistic as the faces I once drew
All thousand words held in my picture were translated wrong
I guess that's what happens when they're badly drawn
I tried to fold my face into a smile or a frown
But in the end I just crumpled it up and tossed it to the ground
So I tried to draw a tear or a sneer or some sympathy
But my hands were shaking, better erase these scribbles off of me
I tried and tried but it's still no good
Which is why I can never be what I still wish I could
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5. |
Simulacrum
04:41
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I stared at the sun, then looked away
Found my vision had been stained
Patches of ghostly color left over when sunlight's been replaced
Whenever I close my eyes
A reminder of lost light
Now it's all the remains of a moment once golden and bright
Chorus:
It's like trying to hold on to water
Trying to feel what I can no longer
I'm pressed up against unbreakable glass
To look at perfection trapped in the past
The absence overwhelms me
Filled to the brim with nothing
Can't let go, no way to hold on
I'm stuck with a simulacrum
Walking through an empty room
This place seems familiar, at least it used to
I can almost see everything that was here
Before it got worn and lost its use
Is everything more beautiful in retrospect?
Does everything feel better out of reach?
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I could recreate the moment that I miss
But that would only be listening for a song in the silence
I want to cry, but I'm too disconnected for tears
I ran out of time and forgot how to feel
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Is everything more beautiful in retrospect?
Does everything feel better put of reach?
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6. |
Different
03:33
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I know it's not fair to wish you were who you were
Back when I knew you
But I know I'll never get the chance to get to know you again
Now for some reason, I can't stop writing you songs you'll never hear
And sometimes when I'm singing, I wonder if you'd even like them
Chorus:
Everything's different now and we're no exception
We can't go back and I have to accept it
We can't undo that we came undone
But I've always found it hard to move on
Changing it now looks just as unlikely
As turning back time to before we started fading
That was then, as much as I miss it
The two of us have become so different
Usually I just stop caring
Lose touch, give up, and soon enough I don't mind that it's all gone
But in this case, that's not the problem
I'm still tryna find what's just not there
It's unspoken that when we're speaking, I can't talk to you
Like no time has passed
I don't know why I can't shrug it off like always
I still wish you didn't disappear
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There is no solution
Except to stand out in the cold till I go numb
Things get ruined without proper care
And now we're broken beyond repair
Remember when you told me
If he thinks I'm quiet, he doesn't know me
But have you noticed how quiet I've gotten
Talking to you
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7. |
Inside Jokes
03:52
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My god, I hope against hope that
I won't forget a single moment
Of the years since we met
Just a bunch of awkward kids proudly admitting our quirks
You're the closest to fearless I'll ever get
Driving each other crazy
As if we weren't already
Confiding while being facetious
Laughing too hard, talking too loud
I don't think that I've told you how
Years from now I know I'll miss
Chorus:
Every time I've embarrassed myself
Knowing it's only a funny story to tell you
When we're talking 'bout stupid things
Pet peeves and idiosyncrasies
You embrace the fact that I'm a mess
And you make it easier to be honest
And we have way too many inside jokes
And we'll keep laughing, I can only hope
Talking 'bout how when we grow up
We're all going to be broke, 'cause
We don't have the highest paying dreams
I hope this isn't unbearably cheesy
Writing happy songs isn't easy
But you mean a lot to me
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I know we can't be thirty and still sitting at the same lunch table
Where we sat every day of middle school
But I hope every once in a while
We'll come back to
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That I won't forget a single moment
That I won't forget a single moment
And we have way too many inside jokes
And we'll keeping laughing, I can only hope
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8. |
I Should've Said
03:19
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I swallow my silence when I've left thoughts undisclosed
I try to escape my fear but get caught in my throat
I'm sorry I didn't say what you needed to hear
When I know someone's listening, it's hard to be sincere
Pre Chorus:
I spend a lot of time talking to myself
Saying things that'll never be heard by anyone else
I'm kicking myself, full of regret
When I think of all the times I should've said
Chorus:
What's wrong?
No, you're not
Me too
I miss you
I'm not okay
Hey, I need to tell you something
Unspoken condolences I uttered silently
Narrating my memories with what I actually mean
I've erased so many words now branded in my skull
Haunted by my failed attempts to be invulnerable
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All I wanted was to turn around and tell you
But I just turned and walked away like I always do
I anxiously waited for the chance to pass me by
So my rapid breathing turned to a well-worn sigh
I'm not allowed to tell the truth
Just shut my mouth, oh what she the use
Of all the things inside my head fighting to be understood
I should've said, I should've said
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9. |
Head Held High
05:10
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You're sometimes visited by the demons
You couldn't entirely defeat
The remnants of the battle you swear you won
Still make it harder to fall asleep
You're moving forward, but there are still times
Your old fears leave you paralyzed
But even when you'd rather evaporate
Then look any of them in the eyes
Chorus:
Don't go back to stooping at everyone's feet
Your diffidence written in your "um"s and apologies
Fear comes creeping back, it will never dir
Just breathe in, breathe out, and keep your head held high
There are rules that you made up from worries
That a part of you is still trying to abide
There are places in your mind you go to nurse your wounds
Oh, you've got places to hide
And yes, you grew stronger, and you built armor
And learned to let go during your retreat
But the things you want to leave behind aren't yet dead
And they'll only grow if they're buried
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The boogeyman still won't leave you alone
And the harsh light chills you to the bone
And there are moments that you shudder to recall
But you're moving towards okay, even at a crawl
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10. |
For Now
03:20
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You can fix anything with a little tape
And it's just fine but you can see it won't stay that way
It'll all feel better, but only for a moment
When you need somewhere new but you don't know where you're going
If I have learned anything, it's these things run out like time
What used to be the world to me is now only alright
I used to love every cheerful nonsense conversation
Ended up in the middle of nowhere, forgot what I was chasing
Chorus:
Should I find something foolproof?
'Cause I heard I'm supposed to have
Something that never fails to make me smile, to make me laugh
But every joke gets old and every song loses its meaning
So I don't know how
To find something that's truly good, not just good enough for now
I think of perfect solutions, but they stay imaginary
This way, I won't find out that they're all just temporary
"If only"s are often sweeter than they are bitter
I'm cold, but if I tried to build a fire I'd gain nothing but splinters
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For now, for now...
For now, it's incredible
For now, it's precious
For now, it's ineffable
But it's so precarious
So hold on tight and don't close your eyes until it's over
Till the paint chips, so even the memory is drained of all its color
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